im having a mental breakdown right now.
seriously. im on the verge of tears.
i probably havent handed in a single piece of work on time for who-knows-how-long. with the exception of ws3.2 today. and my zuowen's not finished. i've got no inspiration. i'm just not motivated in any way.
i've no way to alter my belt. so i'll just have to be killed tomorrow.
there's no one to fetch me home. there's so much to bring home. and it takes 2 hours to reach home. at 7pm. there's no seat on the bus nor train. orchard road has traffic jam, little india has traffic jam, geylang has slight traffic jam.

im seriously gonna cry.

just now we almost encountered a car accident.
some dumb lorry almost crashed into our car. and it almost hit the left side of the hood. i sit at the left. in the front. you know how close that was to dying? well it was. or at least getting injured.
it's freaky.

and now im totally being ignored.
ignored by even my mortal. i cant believe it. and my mum.

i hate my life.
but i dont want to die.

you'll start to cherish your life once you've experienced something that brought you very close to dying.
so i'm gonna cherish mine
although things arent going very well at the moment.

so many projects are being thrown at us
there's a presentation for cme tomorrow.
and there's om. jy's taking charge of om a bit too much, i reckon. shant elaborate.
and home econs. soohan badly wants to do well. i want to do well too. but there's a gut feeling which tells me that we wont.
and science sia. it's due on monday. we havent met up even once. havent even finished anything. and right now is our first meeting. wonderful, yea?

it's already sec2. its the most important year ever. i want triple science. but it'll only be a dream.

mental breakdown. its not a good thing.